Since the egg retrieval I have been in an incredible amount of pain. I really started to feel like something was wrong last night. My stomach was distended and I had a low fever. I decided that I should go in to see the doctor in the morning. I went to my doctor's office and told them my concerns. After consulting with the doctor, they were able to fit me in on the schedule.
It turns out I have Moderate Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome. I sort of already knew this, but when the doctor did my ultrasound, he found a lot of free fluid in my abdomen. With the fluid, they will not permit a transfer to happen. I was doing everything to keep it together in the office. It's not the end of the world, I will eventually be able to transfer the embryos, it just will be several months before we can try. I have to go back in on Sunday to see if the fluid has gotten worse. If it does, they will have to drain the fluid. I guess it takes 3-4 drains before things can go back to normal. I am utterly devastated. I am broken. I am angry. I hope that I can get through this, but right now I don't really even want to. I just want to give up. What's the point? All of this to bring another child into this world so that they could potentially go through the same thing that I am going through? I don't understand the lesson or the purpose in this experience. I have tried everything reasonably possible, and I still get the same result. I'm not meant to have any more children, obviously.
Today is a sad day, so please don't judge me for it.
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