I haven't posted in a while as I have been trying very hard to keep distracted from the baby makin' business. Nothing new to report, other than I am late. Really late. 11 days late to be exact. Not that it means anything though. I have taken who knows how many pregnancy tests, every single one negative. I still have just a sliver of hope that maybe, just maybe a little baby is growing inside of me right now. We'll see, and if not, there's always next month right?
Another thing that is weird this month is that my hair is falling out. Not just a hair here and there, like REALLY falling out. It is so bizarre. It reminds me of after I had my daughter when I had the postpartum hair dump. I would shower and pull clumps of hair out. This actually has been a bit worse than that. I called Mr. Dependable Homeopathic Doctor Guy and of course he has no idea why my hair is falling out. Thanks buddy for recommending drops to take that apparently make my hair fall out, and you have no idea why it is happening. Once I start my period, I am going to go to my OB and have him check all my hormones just to make sure that these drops haven't completely screwed me up. Although, if I am pregnant, I take back everything I just said. I don't care if all of my hair falls out if it means I am pregnant. I can rock the bald and the belly :)
I am doing better. People aren't quite pissing me as much as they used to. I guess I am just more in the acceptance phase of all of this. Don't get me wrong, people are still getting pregnant every month and I am not, but I am just so used to it now. I just figure that at least one person will tell me a month. Lucky for me, someone already told me this month so hopefully that is out of the way for the remaining 13 days.
Once I start my period I am going to go back to the fertility specialist that I saw originally. We have decided that we are going to do IVF in January. My husband's work actually has infertility benefits, but they don't start until January. I am hoping that I can go to the doctor, explain the situation, and start the process in November so that we will be ready to get pregnant in January. I know that I need to be on birth control for at least a month so I figure I could start that anytime. It seems so weird to take birth control now. It's so comical and ironic that I took so many different types of BC for so long because I was worried that we might have our second baby "too soon". If I only knew!
Well I will update as soon as I have "news". I'm not expecting anything, but if anyone is reading this, I would really appreciate the prayers right now. I would love for this torturous journey to be over.
By the way, I had my stomach scoped and they found out that I have a hernia and some excessive bile production going on due to the fact that I don't have a gallbladder. I am on medication, and yes, I have to take it for the rest of my life. Super Duper fun for me. If I ever do get pregnant, I just wonder how this poor baby is going to turn out with all the meds I am on.
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