I think it is kind of funny that another month has already passed and it's the same story just a different day. I have been doing really good staying preoccupied with other things in my life. I have been working really hard on the working out/living a healthier lifestyle. It has been great and I am really starting to see some improvement (That is until I send the hubby out on an ice cream run tonight). I will just keep working at it and hopefully I will get back some of the confidence that I have been lacking.
One thing that is I guess newly developed is a stomach condition that I have been dealing with. I either randomly developed chronic reflux overnight or I have worried myself into an ulcer. The doctor is not really sure what is wrong with me (must be my thing or something. I am a medical mystery in Oh so many ways!), but all I know is having heartburn for 8 straight weeks SUCKS. Now if the heartburn was brought on by pregnancy, then by all means, burn away. To go through this with no motive or happy ending makes no sense to me. So what, I have to take medication for the rest of my life? Why would I suddenly develop this condition when I've never had issues with it before? It has to do something with my "not caring" motion right? I mean I started "not caring" 2 months ago. Seems like a weird coincidence that is when my symptoms started. Even though I am telling myself that I just don't care, my mind obviously knows myself better and it is "secretly" worrying and giving me ulcers! Either way, this has to go away. I don't think I can deal with this for the rest of my life. I am supposed to have my stomach scoped next Monday, so hopefully they will have some answers. Maybe while they are at it they will find out why in the hell I can't get pregnant! Wishful thinking.
